Thursday, November 02, 2006
I have proven/shown/convinced myself that I always will end up this way. I accept this fate even more from now. And I don't pin high hopes for myself in this area anymore.. Not anymore..
I'm a sleepy head. I can close my eyes anytime and dream of anything. I would rather dream of all the pleasant things, and the impossibles all day rather than face the hurtful reality.. (let me have more dreams..) I seem pretty dull especially in school.. But my great friends never fail to colour my daily school life. What will I do without them. haha. Project wise, I feel the stress coming on. Gambate!
I'm stressed for school. Emo.. Desperate for gettting additions in my wardrobe right now. I need a change for my currently super plain image. But I know it's hard. hmm.. The only thing I can wait for is shopping more clothes on Monday with Eileen! Ah girl.. Shall see you then. =)
School's cool with friends right now. Sianx. Working tomorrow, how my working life will be from now onwards..? I don't wanna know.
I'm thinking.. maybe somebody in a suitable position should slap me and knock some senses into me. Then I'll just ran far away so nobody can find me. I forgot.. I'm in Singapore, how far can I escape to.? Shit. I think I'd better go dream and go to somewhere quiet and let me think. I really wish there's such a place.. My most realistic choice now-go to the beach RIGHT NOW(12.20AM) I'll enjoy the calmness. Let me cry silently without any disturbance. Just me, Alone.
I'm a sleepy head. I can close my eyes anytime and dream of anything. I would rather dream of all the pleasant things, and the impossibles all day rather than face the hurtful reality.. (let me have more dreams..) I seem pretty dull especially in school.. But my great friends never fail to colour my daily school life. What will I do without them. haha. Project wise, I feel the stress coming on. Gambate!
I'm stressed for school. Emo.. Desperate for gettting additions in my wardrobe right now. I need a change for my currently super plain image. But I know it's hard. hmm.. The only thing I can wait for is shopping more clothes on Monday with Eileen! Ah girl.. Shall see you then. =)
School's cool with friends right now. Sianx. Working tomorrow, how my working life will be from now onwards..? I don't wanna know.
I'm thinking.. maybe somebody in a suitable position should slap me and knock some senses into me. Then I'll just ran far away so nobody can find me. I forgot.. I'm in Singapore, how far can I escape to.? Shit. I think I'd better go dream and go to somewhere quiet and let me think. I really wish there's such a place.. My most realistic choice now-go to the beach RIGHT NOW(12.20AM) I'll enjoy the calmness. Let me cry silently without any disturbance. Just me, Alone.
handwritten, 11/02/2006 11:44:00 PM.
